THE IMPOSTER SYNDROME

    Yesterday, I witnessed my supervisor as he uploaded my data to the system. This officially marks the end of the data collection part of the project, and now we are moving to the data processing part. I am happy and feel proud of myself for being able to contribute to this project and actually accomplish the task that was assigned to me. For the first time, I felt that I could actually complete the job.
Despite the positive comments my supervisors usually give me, I always felt like I was having imposter syndrome. I can understand why I felt that way because, during the entirety of the first part of the project, I used tools that I have never used before in a real project, but they relied on me 100% to complete the task since I was the only one working on it. So, I was constantly worried that I would not meet their expectation, that I would spend too much time learning the method and not enough time to actually do the work, or that I would do the task wrong leading to a collection of the wrong data. So, I had to update them every day so that they can check every minor progress I make and to make sure that I am giving them what they want. 
    While I am still trying to fight this feeling of imposter syndrome, I can see that it is giving me a lot of advantages, as it pushes me to double or even triple-check all my work, which results in my turning in a much better quality of the result. But I know that I have to work on this impostor syndrome issue as it is affecting my self-confidence, yet, I do not really know how to avoid it yet. 

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